Darkest Jewel (Eclipse)

[Redclaws]

Chaos trudged on, in a dazed pursuit of the rabbit he only somewhat smelled. He didn't even turn and look at Maya as she trudged off in a different direction. Maybe he should just run away. Yeah! Just run away and forget her! He stopped his train of thought. No, That'd be silly. He spotted his prey as he continued to ponder his situation. I promised her I'd be there for her, and a promise is a promise. I have to go with her and fight these wolves. It's my vow to her. The only thing I can do for her.

He leapt through the air and caught his prey. Why couldn't loving her be as easy as that? You slowly work your way towards it, and then, when the time is just right, you go for it. Chaos was utterly confused as he brought the rabbit back to her.

Her warm smile greeted him, perhaps her last attempt at a relationship with him. Chaos decided not to completely destroy their hopes just yet. Maybe he could see if Maya was going to hurt him like everyone else or not if he kept getting closer to her. He smiled back, and gave her the rabbit. "Let's share!" As they ate, Chaos looked up. These mountains seemed different and more peaceful than the ones they were in moments ago. "I think we've crossed the border out of the real forest. Is this the right way?"

[Eclipse]

Maya sat down to rest and wait. She felt hurt, every time she showed affection he either showed it back or pushed her away. It upset her, but when he came back she couldn't help but smile and feel real joy. She was starting to actually care for him, and he didn't care for her back. She wondered sadly if he even really wanted to go with her, and while he was gone she wondered if he was going to come back.

But he did and her tail unintentionally waved happily, her lips drawn into a huge greeting smile. Then he smiled back, confusing and pleasing her intensely. "OK!" She smiled and trotted over to dip her head and share the meal he had brought for her. At his next words she too looked up. The frozen air did seem fresher, cleaner, sweeter. No more lust. The feeling in her gut settled it. This wasn't the Forest anymore, but wherever it was, it was better.

"I don't know, I think so though." Maya murmured, gazing around at the serene beauty of these mountains. No more lustful sex, no more dirty hormone ridden air, it was clean and nice here, and she was thrilled at the difference!

[Redclaws]

OOC: Sorry if his history isn't spot on, im a little sketchy on the details.

Chaos looked at Maya. He owed her so much. His life, if not more. If that was so, why couldn't he love her? Well, that wasn't true. He could and did love her, but he knew he shouldn't love her. He had been hurt by the two most important females in his life, why should this one be any different? His mother raped and abandoned him and his sister, and his sister became his new best friend. She, however, left him for a mate, and had forbidden him to join them on the "journey of a lifetime". He was tired of females doing that to him, and he wasn't about to let it happen again.

I know it destroys her on the inside, and I hate it! But if I stay with her, she could destroy me! I can't get hurt again... Wait a minute... Is that fair? I destroy her so I don't get destroyed... Chaos finally realized how selfish he had been these past few days. What a fool he had been! He had love within his grasp just begging to be taken! Yet he had been ignorant and only thinking of himself. But how can I tell her that? I don't want her thinking I'm a selfish jerk and leaving me. I'd never forgive myself... But if I want her to like me for who I am, she needs the truth. So, mustering up all his male strength, he looked her in the eyes and said, "Maya, we need to talk."

He sighed, looked at the ground and continued. "Maya, I don't think words can express how precious you are to me, and how much I've grown to like you over these past few days. I know it's sudden, and I know a wonderful female like you could have your pick of any male in this forest or the other, but I would be honored to be your mate." He looked at her again, her face was so joyful it looked as if she may cry. Well, now that the easy part was over, he had to say what he needed to. He had to tell the truth.

"There's more Maya... I... I've been hurt by so many females in my life that I don't want to risk being hurt again. I don't want to get that close to someone just to let them crush me into a little pulp whenever they want to. However, I also realize how incredibly selfish that is, and I hate what it must be doing to you. But if I'm going to take you as my mate... I need more time." He looked at her again. Whatever her expression was, It certainly wasn't joy.

[Eclipse]

OOC: Same lol so it's okay

Maya Minka watched him, wondering what he was thinking. Then he spoke, and his tone and words worried her. "Okay," she replied nervously. "What about?" Though she was sure she already knew.

Then his next words sent her spinning, joy and shock combining inside her very depths, probably a glorious smile stretched across her face. "Really? You would?" She wagged her tail and stretched her muzzle out to lick his cheek, his nose, his chin, whatever he let her! Then she froze mid stretch to stare uncertainly at him.

His words once again succeeded in bringing strong emotions to her face, this time hurt and confusion. "So you do or don't?" She whispered with hundreds of questions in her every move, on her face. "I would never hurt my mate." She had disbelief in her voice, but not at him. How stupid she was! She actually believed he might want her. So far her life of males hadn't been so great, especially not with Rape and the other brutes who abused and raped her and her mother till her beloved mother's death(R.I.P.), and her own rejection of will to live. Why would he want her when they hadn't?

[Redclaws]

Chaos licked her cheek. "Of course I love you Maya... I just need some time before I can trust females again, okay? I love you Maya. Never forget that. I just... I..." Chaos started sobbing. He wiped his eyes on the grass and looked up. "Time is short. We have to go. Despite all that's happened, can you still remeber the way?" She nodded, barely there. It was like she was in her own little world, not even caring about him anymore. He stood and looked over the mountainous terrain. "Which way?" Maya said nothing. She simply stood and walked towards the sunset. Chaos followed, ashamed of the grief he had caused her.

They continued on for quite a while, not saying a word to one another. The silence was killing Chaos. He had to say something, but it didn't seem like anything would be able to fix the mess he'd created. I just need to explain better... I at least owe her that... He stepped in front of her and caused her to stop. "Maya... I know you're upset, and I know I seem like the biggest jerk alive, but you have to understand where I'm comming from. My mother raped and left me. My sister and I became unseperable after that. Things were fine for a while, but then she got a mate and left me. She told me to..." His voice started shaking. "She told me she didn't need me anymore... and that she never wanted to see me again... I love you Maya, I truely do... But I'm not ready for a mate. Not yet anyways. Can you understand that? And if you can... Please kiss me..."

[Eclipse]

"If you loved me you would trust me already. True love isn't love at first sight, it's trust, honesty, attraction, and instinct at first sight." Maya growled, suddenly jerking away and turning around. This is how she made it through life. It was easier to anger and rage and wrath then to hurt and cry. So now she would act mad, and make him hurt instead. It was easier, and just what she did. His next question made her laugh sarcastically, "Of course I do. I will never forget the way, not when I die, not when you die, not when my mother's spirit is forgotten. Not even when I'm forgotten. I will never forget." Then she led the way, staying ahead, staying away. He promised to come, if he tried to break that promise she would really hurt him. But that didn't necessarily mean she wanted to walk with him. She just needed help fighting.

As a long silence fell, heavy and dark, filled with secrets and knowledge, anger and hurt, grief, Maya felt tears sliding down the soft black fur of her muzzle, and stopped to attack a mouse, killing it and licking her paw while subtly wiping them away. She wouldn't, she couldn't, cry. He didn't care, not really.

When he stepped in front of her, trying to face her, she snarled and lifted her lip at him. "No, not a jerk. Why would anyone love me anyways? You're just like every other brute I've ever met. At least your mother was still there. At least she's still alive. At least you have a mother." She snarled. "And trust me, I know more about rape then you. Remember my mother? She died because of being over-raped, and I almost died of the same fate. If anything, it should be me who doesn't trust anyone. But I chose to trust you, and let you help me avenge the deaths of the innocent caused by these evil wolves. So you should be able to trust me. No one has ever hurt and been betrayed as much as I have. And you don't even know the whole story about me. I have so many reasons not to trust brutes or faes, or anything besides the call of nature and the fact that there will always be some pattern of life."

She ignored what he wanted. She no longer did trust wolves. As she pulled off the path as the sun started to set, she curled up inside the curve of a fallen tree's branches, where her back and sides were protected, and all she had to do was watch her front. Watch him.

OOC: OMG! Haha lol second sentence first paragraph. Trust, Honesty, Attraction, and Instinct. Or THAI. I love Thai food! xD

[Redclaws]

OOC: lol, did you do that on purpose or just re-read and go, dude! nice! lol. Hoo boy... I got some work to do.

Chaos was scared... He had never seen Maya so upset in the entire time he had known her. His head was spinning at how much had happened in the past few minutes, it made him want to tear at the grass and howl in pain. But he couldn't. He couldn't because now there was no one to answer his futile cry. No one to care for him. No one to guide him. And most important and sadly, no one to love him. That was all he ever wanted was her love. He was just too scared to admit it.

When Maya had practically clawed his face off when he asked if she knew the way, part of him died inside. He respected and loved her so much. He couldn't bear being treated like a savage. Not wanting to tick her off more, he followed without a word, leaving a trail of tears in the freshly falling snow.

He wasn't sure if Maya was crying, but he didn't care. What did it matter? He couldn't wipe them away for he like he could a few hours ago. He couldn't hold her and tell her it was alright. He didn't even know if it would be alright. He certainly hoped so, but that philosophy had gotten him chewed up and spit out just now, so why should this be any different?

When she went to sleep in the old tree stump, he tried to walk over and lay down next to her, but she bared her teeth at him and growled. Chaos started walking away, then turned back, all his emotions pouring out in his last attempt to win back the love of his life... the meaning of his life. If this failed... Chaos didn't know what he'd do, but he was sure it wouldn't end well...

"Maya... I'm so sorry about the way things happened. I know I was inconsiderate and I'm sorry! I'm a horrible wolf, and you have every right to be mad at me. I was being self-centered and stupid. You deserve more than that. I love you Maya. With all my heart and all I am. I trust you. I just love you so much, I'm afraid of losing you. I'm not afraid of what you're going to do. I trust you completely. I'm afraid of what I'm going to do. I feel responsible for both the tragedies in my life, and I didn't want to cause another, so I tried avoiding you. But when I realized how much I loved you, I wanted you, but I was cautious. Now I know for sure that you're the one I love, and always will. I don't care if you have a unique physique for a female. I love that about you. It's what makes you you Maya. You're not just another femme to me Maya... You a source of life. Without you... I'm dead." He looked at her. Her emotions were unreadable, but he figured he had only made things worse by bringing it up again. With a heavy heart, he slowly trudged away, hoping the voice he knew so well would call him back. If not... He'd just keep going.

[Eclipse]

OOC: Complete coincidence! xD Now....what shall his fate be.....? xP

Maya was disappointed at how quietly he took her anger, how he bore it upon himself without complaint or argument. She might have liked a fight. But no---she wouldn't really. That was just her anger trying to save her the pain again.

After her last burst of anger she was lost to memory, and when he spilled all he could she simply stared off into space, distrust about her. Her mind was shutting down with the inability to trust or love, memories flooding her, new and old, all freshened by his earlier words. She remembered the earlier days with him, and how he hurt her. She had thought he had broken her trust, then she did, and her heart was completely torn.

Then she had met Chaos and thought that perhaps something shouldn't be judged by its gender or breed, and perhaps she could love again. Then he crushed that, just like all the others had. Just like him.

Tears welled up in her eyes, her mind clearly not on Chaos. She howled softly with pain at the memories, fear and sorrow ripping through her with an agony that caused her to cry out in actual pain.

[Eclipse]

OOC: Sorry it's so short

[Redclaws]

OOC: That's okay, I dont really have much to say in response though...

Chaos walked on... crushed and defeated. He spilled out everything he was and had for her. In the end she didn't even care or realize it. He heard her painful howl split the air as he trudged on, deep into the snow. When she howled for the second time. He couldn't take it. Despite the consequences, he couldn't bear to hear her like this. He pounded off towards her direction.

When he got back to her tree, she was gone. Luckily, the snow made tracking easy, and after maybe a minute or two, and only losing her scent once, he found her crying next to a huge weeping willow tree. He slowly walked up to her. Her sobs were audible for a long ways. Chaos mustered up whatever courage he had left and went for it. He slowly approached her, keeping a distance of a few feet, and sat down. "Maya... Maya... I hate seeing you like this. What makes it even worse is that I made you like this. I can't express how sorry I am and how much I love you. What happened was just a misunderstanding. I wasn't ready for a mate. But now I think I am. And there's only one fae I want, and that's you Maya. I won't hurt you. You know me. I'm not like those other brutes. I could never take advantage of you." But Maya didn't even seem to hear. She just padded off in the direction she was facing.

Overcome with grief and rage at her for not listening when he was giving her his all, he charged at her and tackled her in the snow to get her attention. He was almost shouting. "Maya! I love you! Why can't you understand that? I'm sorry I hurt you! You think relationships between wolves have to be perfect? I know mates who fight and disagree all the time, but that doesn't change the one undeniable fact that I can claim. I still love you." Teeth gritted, he caught his breath and continued. "Maya. If I didn't care about you, I would've walked off hours ago. I thought about it when I went hunting a few days ago. But I didn't. Know why? Because I didn't want to hurt you. Everything I've done, I've done for you! I could've walked out on you not even two minutes ago. But I didn't. I care about you Maya. Nothing is ever going to change that. I promise I'll always love and respect you. That's my vow as a brute, and your friend, if not more." Realizing he was still on top of her, he got off and sat there awkwardly, not knowing how she'd take his outburst.